Dear Diary

I’m afraid the woman they expected me to be was never me in the first place. I’m not sure who gave them the idea or maybe they thought for themselves I was someone I am NOT. Don’t get me wrong, I am not heartless but if you think I will settle for less… think again. From years of giving people the benefit of the doubt, being careless is not an option: I’m just not getting involved. The “right” man for me may come along and to be honest: I encourage it- but I am no longer putting myself out there. Strangers, friends, mutual acquaintances- they all fell through. I’ve even have people recently tell me they’ve always had a crush on me but their in relationships, having babies, or getting married now. My luck sucks. So this year and next year is dedicated to enjoying life. Road trips, the night life, boats, camping, festivals and shows: I’m ready for the whole works.

Love will come when it’s ready to be received.

[Bee signed out]